Friday, 20 February 2009

Free Will and Determinism paradox

After the discussion I observed yesterday, I have been thinking about it myself. I will start off with De Facto and explain the paradoxes.

Free will is the assumption that human actions have no generative cause because of the complexities involved in determining the will to provoke the action. It is assumed to be incomprehensible by human mind therefore neglected.

In the other hand, determinism assumes that all actions have a cause. This is derived from the observation of the world in detail/minute scale where particle behaviour has a preceding cause.

Now we shall look at the paradoxes, starting with free will. If a human or any living creature exercises a will, their actions are generated from a phenomenon that is exclusive to them and doesn't need to abide by the existing natural laws. It is an exception to the rule. For example, it is like saying, a ball bounces according to natural laws but living creatures, or as we prefer to think, humans, have a spiritual ghost that drives the free will mechanism. This of course would be an unacceptable argument from any rational perspective.

As for the paradox of determinism, it can be explained simply by the following metaphor. A ball flung against the wall of an enclosed cube floating in space would continue to bounce against the sides of the wall as there would be no frictional force resulting in from gravity if we assume that the enclosed cube has no capacity to inflict gravity or frictional force. If there are several balls in the enclosure, they will probably head for collision course against each other introducing a more complex activity. If we imagine the human brain with particles behaving in this manner and driving the workings of the body, there would be little point in debating the truthfulness or falsehood of the two positions because even the activities resulting in someone attesting the correctness of free will have gone through the same deterministic processes. There is no criteria for "truth" in the situation. And we can know for sure that truth exists because "truth doesn't exist" is in itself stating a truth statement.

I feel that the best way to compromise between the two position is to look at another metaphor. We are aware that the world is a spheroid but from first person perspective, it is perceived as a flat plane. In the same way, determinism can be pictured as the whole and free will as the local perception rather than view them as two separate entities. This is possible to perceive from the viewpoint of an external observer, who is aware of all the activities taking place in the brain and has a machine capable of predicting the next action based on determinism, however being unaware of their own free will induced by the deterministic quality of the brain.

It just seems easier to think that the world is a flat plane while working locally. If we agree that the purpose of life is to be happy and if ease of achieving the purpose itself fulfils the purpose, it can be said that free will can make us happier.

Sunday, 15 February 2009


Well, the last few days, running up to my birthday, have been a blur. I’ve been appointed as the new secretary of the Visual Arts Society. Have been going out more frequent than usual and amount of time I’ve been spending in the library has been less than I’ve been expecting to. Last Thursday and Friday were especially crap coz we had lectures all day. Week earlier was Bath Winter Wonderland so the Thursday and Friday lectures of that week got cancelled. Therefore, we had to work extra hard this week to catch up with the course content. Still haven’t started to bother looking for an accommodation but don’t have any driving energy to make me start looking for one. Watched “Slumdog Millionaire” yesterday. It was a brilliant movie. A soundtrack was especially pleasant to the ears namely “Paper Planes” by Mia.  The day was short and it was time for Valentines Comeplay. Eep. The details I don’t think I will forget so I will keep it to myself.

Feel like drawing. I think I will go do that. Can’t believe I kept this one short. But it pretty much sums up the last few weeks of my life.

Ps. Feel blinded.

Monday, 19 January 2009

Exams and deadlines

“Oh wow, how interesting… he is writing about his deadlines… now I can bore myself my reading it” is my obvious guess at what you might be thinking right now. Apologies if I’m wrong… but please, you don’t have to read this.

Since I’ve already bored you with the pointless paragraph, I’m going to talk about the actual point of this whole blog which takes us back to the title. Detail design deadline… and three days for the Building Environment exam, and another two days for Structures exam and the History essay deadline three days ago. Fun.

Its amazing how quickly all of that passed. For Detail Design, didn’t sleep for three whole days. Don’t know how I did that… of course I took a few power naps here and there. But even then, I managed to miss the deadline because I was so tired, I just couldn’t help but go to sleep and got up ten minutes before the deadline and I had an entire poster to finish. Therefore, I ran across to Martin’s office and he was kind enough to allow me to finish off the poster past the deadline.

The Building Environment test… I have mixed feeling regarding how the result is going to reflect the amount of effort I put into it. I hope to pass… because I don’t think horrendously bad but due to the fact that I only spent 3 days of the whole semester trying to revise for it, I just don’t know whether that was enough effort or not.

As for the Structures test, it seemed to go okay but after the end of the exam and whilst discussing the method of derivation with friends, we all seemed to have different results for some of the questions that seemed to be easy… but we’ll see how it goes. The first question was relatively simple to get past even though I spent a whole 20 minutes on it because I had doubts over whether I’d miss easy marks but I think I did it fine at the end after a lot of scribbling over and rewriting.

The essay submission which I stayed up all night doing, was mostly spent on trying to decide what pictures would go on it as well as labelling the pictures. I was brain dead halfway through the night so had to wait till the Student Union shop opened in the morning so I could recharge myself with Relentless. The body felt terrible due to the fact that I had consumed three cans of it before the deadline but ended up consuming another can after the deadline. However, all I needed to ensure was that I’d not go to sleep and miss the deadline like the last time. Managed to get the poster done before the essay and wasn’t particularly impressed with the conclusion in the essay but didn’t feel as though I had enough time left so spent the last hour trying to print off the essay and the poster. Twelve minutes before the deadline, I sent the poster off to the printer with Philippos’s help, due to the fact that he let me use his printer credit . I handed it in two minutes before the deadline. I felt sorry for a few people who were still waiting to get their posters printed and missed the deadline because this girl from higher year was trying to get her huge drawings printer. But apparently, later found out that Rob accepted their work after the deadline anyway.

Have been just chilling out for the last couple of days and not worrying too much about the exam on Friday. Not too worried about it as long as I get some light revision done before the date. Probably will have to get started properly tomorrow. Have been showing Philippos the videos on Zeitgeist and he pushed him into a thinking mode. I am myself unsure about my position because the way they talk about resource based economy and its advantage over money based economy sounds almost too good to be true. Even Stefan Molyneux seems to be sceptical about the proposition made. However, I wouldn’t mind supporting it and seeing how the world would turn out if the plan was implemented. Surely it can’t be worse than the present state of the world.

Been talking to Andrea and Mike today, I know you guys might read this so I don’t mean to mention you guys in any particular order. We talked for a few hours on MSN and talked about abiding to a code of conduct which includes: always speak the truth; always be reasonable; and always be virtuous. They didn’t seem to be too happy about following these conducts even though I tried to explain how they shouldn’t treat other people if they don’t want to be treated in the same way. I don’t know. I hope to have at least made them think about it. I believe its all about informing people so everyone is closer to the objective reality of which I have ever diminishing doubt of its existence which is a complete contrast to how I felt about it probably last year. Can’t help myself but laugh about it now.

And it was really nice to actually speak to Sangam as well after such a long time. Haven’t had any contact with her in months. She sounded very happy and almost sounded as if she had a Japano-Nepalese accent. It was quite strange but nice at the same time. I was pleased to hear that she was taking photography lessons and had really made progress in her Japanese. Can’t wait to hear her speak in Japanese someday.

Ben helped me with my shopping today as well for which I have to thank him again. He’s a good friend and his sarcastic humour is admirable. We have long philosophical conversations once in a while and I always find them pleasant.

Just as a side note, I can’t stand him anymore. The only conversation we ever seem to have is about housing. I really don’t want to be in the same house as him. Similar music taste doesn’t mean we have the same personality. I just hope that my behaviour around him will get that point across to him. I can’t confront him directly for complex reasons that I am unable to get across on here. He knows who he is.

I think that would be it. Congratulations for getting this far. Ta ta!

Thursday, 1 January 2009

Happy F***ing New Year

Haha what a joke. I went to London to celebrate new year with a few friends. The plan was to just tour around London throughout the day and observe the firework during the night. It was, I suppose, quite a dear day out. However, that is really not the worst part. While the day was pretty good, after the countdown and the fireworks, due to the crowd, the train station was barred by the police so I missed my last train home. I tried to keep warm by going back and forth in the underground tube and ended up in Charing Cross. After getting chucked out at five, I got some food to eat from McDonalds and stayed in there for warmth but got chucked out of there as well at around half past five. So I had no choice but to wait out in the cold till half six. My feet were cold and the body was very tired. After the station opened, I went to inquire about the expired ticket and told them it wasn’t my fault I didn’t get on the train earlier in the morning so I shouldn’t have to pay for another ticket. They were fussy at first but later agreed to let us travel with the same ticket after more people complained. I boarded the train at half past eight. On the way, I did a couple of drawings so commemorate my resolution for the new year, namely, reaching new frontiers of creativity. So all in all, a crazy start to a new year. Hopefully you all had a good one as well :)

Tuesday, 30 December 2008

Anxiety over deadlines

Another big break before I'm posting here again. Continue this trend and the next time I post, I will be quite dead already. So to excite the enthusiasm of posting blogs, I'm going to tease myself with a bit of what it used to be like. I know for a fact that I enjoy it... I just haven't 'bothered' frankly. Perhaps due to its zero popularity inferred from the dead statistics of comments posted for the previous entries. This one is for my own reference alone so it doesn't trouble me too much knowing no one is going to read it or find it interesting enough to comment.

I had two assignments, nothing more. I only have a week left out of three weeks of time I had. In fact, its less than a week. I have read and re-read various articles on Le Corbusier and also have been going back to the actual brief trying to understand what it is actually asking of me but have not managed to make any sense of it at all.  With a genetic trait that reduces me to a retard when it comes to writing essays, it makes the matters much much worse.

Lets not even talk about the detail design assignment… haven't even started giving it thoughts yet.

And this is a jar of pickled onion

The past few months have been a rollercoaster ride. After much consideration, I'm now an anarchist from no political views at all and an atheist from an agnostic. Life suddenly feels much lighter. I can spot the birds flying in the sky again. Time too, for the past few months, feels like it is strapped to a jet engine. Everytime I blink, its another day. Not even being poetic here.

Okay, I'm not going to make this one too long because part of the reason I stopped blogging was I always waited long enough to write lots of stuff then get tired and get bored. So I'm going keep these babies short and sweet and easier for you to digest as well. x

Saturday, 14 June 2008

Exams are over!

Wow! It kept me busy for so long, I even forgot I had a blog. Well, of course I knew I had a blog but I never had the time to update it so I guess I should apologize to the non-existent readers for that. Anyway, just dropping by to reflect on how my mentality has changed over this period I have vanished. But before that, I just want to declare this "Yay!" feeling that I have about the exams being over. So I guess I am sort of happy about that.

If you have come here as a result of watching my YouTube videos, I realize how I expressed at some point that I thought the world was just an illusion. I didn't explain it very clear there but I have a good reason for not being able to... and that is, I didn't know why I thought the world was as illusion. Perhaps just re-telling the same thing someone else told. One can only speculate.

However, ever since, I have been on a quest to find out why. First of all, I had to realize the purpose of life. I decided that the purpose of life is to be happy. Or content or whatever. Because, boy it feels good to be content. We all seek contentment in one form or another. Some might believe they can be content by killing themselves, thus by ending the worldly suffering or just go and doing what they enjoy most. I think I like the second approach better. However, most people take the suffer we see around the world for granted. Like there is supposed to be suffering without any cause and there is nothing we can do to avoid it. I see that to be a ludicrous approach to life. Any rational human being knows that freedom is out there. Hence we feel compelled to compare everything we have in our lives to that idea of freedom. If the idea of freedom is rational, it is definitely possible. This is due to the fact that rationality resembles consistency with logic. I think you get my point here so I will move on.

So what makes us happy? In personal terms, getting what we want and doing what we enjoy most. In social terms, honesty and reception of non-aggressive behaviors. My idea of aggression consists of any form of facial expression that resembles even a slight tint of motive to cause discomfort to gory knife slashing throat slitting horror flicks you get to see in horror movies but of course in reality, including everything in between. (eg. a punch)

Thursday, 5 July 2007

What a life.

Wish it was easier to give up. So much has happened since the last update and even now, I'm in such an awkward position and cant think of anything better to do.